Note from Goldenlight: this is from Steve Beckow at The 2012 Scenario. If you have not yet visited this site, check it out, it’s a wonderful resource for ascension, enlightenment, and many topics relating to the Golden Age. Great reading on this site, I’ve gotten lost in it for hours many a time đ
Feet Up and Reflecting
Iâm in the midst of my own process around 21/12/12. Iâm also taking a break and putting my feet up.
The spiritual experience I had recently has departed, as they all do.
A former est graduate wrote in to me and said: âGetting it, losing it, getting it, losing it. Thatâs life.â And of course heâs right. Only in sahaja do we get it and not lose it. So Iâm back in normal consciousness.
Life as I anticipated it is not unfolding in the manner I expected. I anticipated us being on the Fifth Dimension now, finding our ground, rejoicing, participating in a grand celebration and reunion.
But we arenât in the midst of a grand celebration and so Iâm adjusting to what actually is, rather than how Iâd like things to be. No one said the Divine had to do things the way I wanted them done.
The vasana thatâs going off for me relates to the year 2000, when evidence emerged that Sai Baba was a ⊠well, was not what he appeared to be. Let me put it that way. I was involved up to my topnotch in the Sai organization.
My life fell apart when I really looked into the evidence and could not dispute it. So thatâs the âearlier similar,â as weâd have called it years ago, thatâs playing for me right now. Iâm sourcing that vasana.
Iâm going to need to move through it before I can comfortably write again. Otherwise Iâm plastering a happy face over an upset and you wonât buy that and I wonât buy it. We have a nose for a lack of integrity, a BS meter we would have called it.
So Iâve decided to take the time off between now and perhaps Jan. 1, 2013 or until the vasana is complete, whichever comes first. I also need a break anyways.
And then again, Iâve written on the complete scenario and am not really clear what remains to be said. Barring some really startling events, I may need to find a new subject or one that hasnât been well covered already. The ingredients are mixed. The cake is in the oven. There isnât more to be done with the cake that Iâm aware of.
In terms of the looking Iâm doing, Iâm not prepared to accept anything or reject anything simply because this or that source says itâs true or untrue. I need to find evidence if Iâm to accept or reject any contention, no matter who says what. And Iâm in that process of finding and evaluating the evidence now.
A word on comments before I leave. As you know, we havenât been opening comments often because, if one does so, one also has to assume the responsibility of watching over them. Some of your comments end up in the spam filter. You think youâve been moderated, but you havenât â at least not by human hand.
Akismet automatically moderates comments so it isnât a process weâre involved in. You used a swear word or a word associated with a threat or something like that and Akismet has pounced on it and quarantined you.
And unless someone watches over comments every day, no one notices the comments that end up there.
Also, the comments that end up in the pending file (not sure why they do) donât get posted unless someone sees them. Then youâre annoyed and thereâs more email. Accepting comments is not an automatic process. It generates work and not many editors are around at this time of year to do it.
So the need to pay more or less constant attention to comments is the reason why we donât often open them. It just isnât a service that we have the people power for.
I hope everyone had an enjoyable Christmas. Many may be triggered. You are after all visiting the people with whom many of your strongest and most persistent early upsets occurred. Give yourself a break. Our families of origin are the toughest forum to be in. If youâre upset, use the opportunity to source the vasana that goes off. Just as Iâm doing now. Rejoice! Only when a vasana goes off can it be sourced, remember?
Iâm not far away. Iâm reading email if not necessarily answering as many of them as usual. I can scurry back if thereâs anything pressing. But it would be nice to have a really substantial break.
Steve Beckow, http://the2012scenario.com
source: http://the2012scenario.com/2012/12/feet-up-and-reflecting/#more-158257
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